If there was one honest thing I've done in my life... it was that. I remember being at the gym and asking Calvin - "Are we compatible?" and he said "Yes. He will get you - I don't know if you will ever understand him, but he will understand you." Well, no Calvin. He's a stress-case and I guess he doesn't get me.
I need to pull away from you now - you are the cause of this heart break
Have you ever looked at someone and felt at that moment in time that you were going to marry this person? That you were so sure, and this was it. You will be with this person forever? I've felt this way about one person - but these things, being who I am and maybe even who you are... they aren't tangible. Some things don't last forever. You know what does?
Alan Pownall
It's only been a year since I've rekindled my interest in music, and therefore indulged.
See, I can never go back to the person whom I thought I would marry. It just doesn't apply anymore. I'll look to this person and remember what we had but things will never be the same.
The song here though? This is the good stuff.
Music - songs specifically - have the time-travel quality about it! You may have noticed this once, at some point in your life - if not through sound, then smells, sights, tastes, touch...
Everytime I listen to this song ...I think about a myriad of things, may not apply forever - but it's always the same.
Life is what we make of it... there's the stuff one cannot control and the fluff that one can control. When truths (stuff) are too difficult to face, we relinquish that control to a higher-being or greater meaning, they're interchangeable in our quest for curbing that vast gap between humans and the universe. Ultimately, finding that meaning is what gives our lives meaning.
Friday afternoon I declared to all and none that I sought out to find myself the weekend of October 21st, 2011. Who am I kidding? I know there's a lot of me left to grow, but I already know myself.
weekend in a nutshell: gym study shoppingmall-bestbuy visits friendsforlife nature/nurture OccupyGranville studybuddy "If only he didn't look like what he does..." (Jesus y'all, he looks like heyzeus) Sleepinglate-sleepingnotin Photoshooot Rage Rage Rage notgymming-nap gym studying YMCA! highschoolfriend-staythatway EarlybirdCal! LateKotomi (I'm always on time) silvertower mangococonut specialmenu eggplantnoodles "testosterone peeingandshuddering bearattacks (cat-made) Cleanrooms-febreeze Rage Scarymovies Birthdays-happy family (: Siblings Sleepy flexArms 'ilikeyournose/ears/eyebrows' tattoos'huge' PALMREADING!!! 'youliveandthenyoumeettheloveofyourlifeandthenyoudie' Workworkwork Milktea tea zz Thanksfordriving!" YMCA-parkinglot LangaraGolfCourse Moat Breka Cheesecake smilies Friends Boyfriends Life Boy Friends Stinkeye'A' (I remember everything again) retrospect 2:00Am "i'mhome!" sleptlateearlystart study bananabread gym Bestfriends Onthesubject-of? squats-frontsquats beingcreepy beingweird beingcute study shower sleep"
